Sunday, September 09, 2012

Been 2 yrs since this blog had seen something new..
I guess i've been neglecting to update abt my life to my oh so loyal followers of my blog..
Or maybe i've hidden all my frustrations n pushed them out of the way..

I guess lying awake at night n not being able to slp has pushed me to do something b4 i go crazy over the thoughts in my head.
Tried so hard to ignore the qns tt she had asked me, even though i know she meant well, but i hate the qns tt had sunk into my head.
I've never questioned the feelings, the character, the lack of initiative. Kept telling myself tt it was him, n i know him.
Yet with her qns, i wasnt prepared by my own insecurities tt appeared.

Asking outright would take alot of guts.
I tried. Didnt manage to finish without my courage failing.
I'm a small woman afterall.
N yet, she felt i had taken too much initiative.
Maybe tt was my way to hide my insecurities n fears.

Been so long since i lost slp over this.
Work had made me so tired tt all these had faded.
Now my crazy thoughts appeared when i have some time.

Sometimes i wish i can just stop thinking.

1:47 AM

Thursday, April 22, 2010

watching the sec4 dancers crying n having a level thrash, it reminds me of my own guiding days.

even though it wasn't a full out thrash, i can feel tt the girls were really sincere in wanting to clear all their misunderstandings.

got me thinking abt all the possible misunderstandings tt other ppl could have been harbouring abt me over so many yrs..

n i never bothered trying to justify myself..

is it necessary?

because of the thrashing, we almost got locked in sch.

but it was worth the time watching them.

8:05 PM

Thursday, April 01, 2010

thur early morning, on the bus to tpy stadium, a rare moment of having silence around me.

sudden memory abt something tt someone said.

n a thought flashed through my mind: how would it be like?

n by the time i reach tpy, i still can't decide whether it would be a possibility or just plain weird.

4th week in sch is going to be over.

fearful tt wad i fear the most, will come true one day.

n if tt really happens.. wad am i gonna do?

if its the stress talking, then i should shut my ears n pray hard tt it'll go away.

stop talking to me, stress. i dun need u around.

i'm not escaping from u. i just dun want u around.

10:14 PM

Saturday, February 13, 2010

the perfect bday.. (^_^)

lobster meal from manhattens...

n the dolphin waterglobe tt i've always wanted..

couldn't ask for more! (^_^)

thanks laogong! love u loads!

1:11 PM

Sunday, January 10, 2010

my hols are ending.

n my 2 major buys are below:

i love this purple bag, not only coz of the texture n pattern, but the size of it. yes its very practical for my future use as well, but dun look too dorky.

bought this brown bag also, meant for cny lahz, but can also be used for outside n for future use.

had a luxurious meal with my mum yesterday.

been eating crabs at various areas around sg, n even in jb.

butter n yolk crab

black pepper n red wine ribs

spinach with toufu (pretty plain though)

stuffed with gd food, enjoyed rotting at home for the whole hols.

now, all these has to come to an end tonight.

it'll be the start of a new sch term. my last sch term in fact.

n barely a mth more, i'll be having my last practicum.

n then, come may, i'll be graduating.

time will fly.

it'll be the end of my sch (studying) life, n the start of my sch (working) life.

the change of roles.. drastic but necessary.

it'll still be a long learning process, even when i start working.

a lot more skills to pick up, a lot more things to look out for.

6:41 PM

Friday, December 18, 2009

experienced Dialogue in the Dark today.

it was really really an enriching experience.

i was really scared at first, coz the idea of not being able to see anything simply terrified me.

becoz my eyesight was bad, i know how it was like not being able to see things clearly.

but not being able to see anything at all, its a whole new different story.

after the whole trip, i realised how much we are dependent on our sight on navigation, so much so tt when we lose our sight, we do not know how to navigate anymore. it becomes very confusing, n u're only reassured when u can hear voices directing u.

we went through the forested area, learning to appreciate the sound of birds n the waterfall; went on a boat ride, imagining how singapore river is like in our minds; we went through the modern area, crossing the rd n learning how difficult n dangerous it is when we can't see anything; went to the mkt, learning how to differentiate the items displayed using our sense of touch n smell; n finally, we went to the bar, n learnt how it was like to drink in the dark.

this whole experience can be unimaginable to ppl who've never experienced how being visually impaired is like. my eyes were hurting from staring into the darkness n straining to see, so much so tt i ended up closing them. it was total darkness; there weren't even exit lights there. becoz ur eyesight is not of use, u become very much dependent on ur ears to navigate. tt's one reason why they call the place "Dialogue in the Dark". w/o sound, we wouldn't have been able to move. we wouldn't even know which direction to move.

this place is really highly recommended. it is inside ngee ann poly, n well worth the money spent.

9:25 PM

Friday, December 11, 2009

wow i've not blogged for such a freaking long time!

perhaps the longest "hiatus" tt i've ever gone on unintentionally.

but anyway, it is possible tt i'll stop blogging very soon, esp after i grad.

wouldn't want my students to find out my blog.

anyway, nothing much have been happening.

finished my only exam on the 17th nov, been slacking till now.

went to minds cafe on the day exams ended, had fun with them. so funny to see tera's reaction when kain said the name "elfie". hahaha..

its been 2 yrs since i went sikkim.

i still think abt wad had happened over there.

i still miss the carefree feeling i had. how i wished i could stay there for a longer period of time.

i still miss watching the sunrise. n the only sunset i managed to see.

i wonder whether i'll ever have the courage to go back alone.

i pray for all the best for yiting's trip to sichuan.

p.s. maybe i should have lent u the duffel bag instead. it has more capacity, n got wheels also, just abit hard to carry :P

not going to anywhere for tour this time round.

but maybe will go jb with sj, since thomas did promise to bring us around.

maybe should pack my bags before going over to jb for cheap bargains. haha.

can't wait to see laogong later!

after 5yrs ++, i still feel excited going out with him. even though i know tt there won't be any surprises, but i enjoy spending time with him. even if it is just window shopping.

10:13 AM

Saturday, October 10, 2009

"这是一个好朋友送的。"
如果，有人再问起，我会这样回答。
我要让他知道，我依然把他当成我很好的朋友。

one of my fav geog profs passed away on tue.
perhaps, it was a release for her, n for her family.
she had really changed a lot after coming back from her long treatment.
it pained us, seeing how she has suddenly aged n weakened.
her spirit was still strong, n i admire her for it.
i shall rem the strength she showed everyday, the positive glow tt came out from her even though her body was battered.

10:11 PM

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

happen to see this today:
"夫君子之行：静以修身，俭以养德；非淡泊无以明志，非宁静无以致远。" - 诸葛亮
One should seek serenity to cultivate the body, thriftiness to cultivate the morals. Seeking fame and wealth will not lead to noble ideal. Only by seeking serenity will one reach far. - Zhugeliang

so chim..

6:17 PM

Friday, October 02, 2009

n finally, my hist fieldtrip is over.
a great celebration after tt at central (again)..
n this time, it was even better coz thomas could finally join us!

shall post up photos when blogger allows me to..

now, looking forward to my geog fieldtrip! but its giving us headaches..

8:48 PM

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

My Love Will Get You Home - Christine Glass

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home.

10:12 PM

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

some backdated photos tt i should have put up some time ago but never did..

i bought this pair of shoes just 2 days ago, when i went to vivo to have dinner with my mum. i'm currently wearing it in fact, n they haven't give me blisters or pain so far. just tt the bottom is on the hard side, but i'm still fine with it.

i never knew snapple had mango juice..

laogong n i went to vivo to break fast one day, n decided to eat at barcelos. we tried it once b4, food was ok, but laogong found it a little on the ex side. tried it again tt day. i only like the spicy rice, which wasn't exactly spicy. wad i like more is the kind of sauce they use. i think when i start serious cooking, i'll go n buy the kind of sauce they use.

i've fallen in love with teadot at iluma. the shops were ok only, but i love spending time at teadot just relaxing.

i shared this slice of cake with laogong. it wasn't too sweet n creamy to the extent of bleah-ness, they seem to be going towards the "healthy lifestyle" mentality.

their tea is as usual superb in my opinion. i'm not sure why, but i like how they try to mix different types of fruit n flower n tea taste together. they've not done a bad job so far in the drinks tt i've ordered.

now i'm busy with my fieldtrip planning. one tt will happen next wk, n i'm still working on it. had already recce fort canning hill three times, n i still feel insecure abt wad i can do. i wonder how i'm gonna cope with planning fieldtrip alone next time.

on a brighter note, i'm spending the whole day with laogong tmr! although i'll probably be half thinking abt work, but at least i still have time to relax with him :P

1:58 PM

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

i'm getting a bit pissed with my student.
i hope i'm not putting my trust in the wrong place.
if he doesn't wish to help himself, i can't help him either.

i m getting tired from all these.
now i'm wishing i hadn't take up this job.
its so frustrating.

2:18 PM

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

watching westlife concert at Croke Park Stadium on 1st june 2oo8.
"flying without wings" brought back a lot of memories.
i seriously prefer their original songs last time.

yest was really weird for me. for some reason, i was thinking of a guy tt i used to have a crush on. n while waiting for the bus, i actually saw his ex-classmate.
ok tt was really weird.
but now thinking abt it, i wonder how he's doing.
i wouldn't mind having a chance to talk to him again. even though i think it would be awkward.

oh well.. i should just concentrate on my work, n stop dwelling on these weird thoughts i have.

2:41 PM

Friday, September 11, 2009

had a fun afternoon at angel's place.. learning how to play blokus with sj.. haha.. it was really funny..
n sj finally saw herself going bankrupt in monopoly..

went to eat dinner at astons with angel n her frens, n i happen to see my sec sch classmate.
i wasn't surprised when she didn't acknowledge me at all.
i knew i hadn't changed much; neither had she, n i could recognise her.
but i knew tt even if she had recognised who i was, she wouldn't bother saying hi to me n acknowledge my presence.

its kind of sad.. but at the same time, i know tt i shouldn't feel bothered.. afterall, she wasn't the most fav person in my sec sch life..

11:30 PM

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

090909..
the perfect day to get married..
n keith is one of the lucky ones who had the chance to have his solemnisation arranged to be on this day..

认识他快四年了，从orientation 到现在，我们以前无所不谈，但从Sikkim 回来之后，就没有再说话了。偶尔和一群朋友，就还会聊一点，但就仅此而已。他过去为了感情，本来很苦恼，很厌烦，甚至过了几个月的单身汉。现在，兜兜转转，又回到了起点。真的希望他会幸福。

anyway, i'm still amazed at how my sis can slp right through the alarm no matter how long it rings. even now, as i'm typing this, the alarm clock has been ringing for 5mins, n she hasn't stirred. the power of the slping bug inside her is amazing..

7:58 AM

Monday, August 31, 2009

i still dun understand why she had to be so critical abt us, when we had done nothing wrong.
n i was quite pissed off.
wad she has done was to push us away, n reduced the chances of us continuing this tuition job.

i shall try not to think too much, n just help my students as much as i can.
but i've decided tt i will not return again next yr.

lesson learnt: understand the situation first, b4 passing a judgement. if not, u'll just piss a lot of ppl off, n push them away from u.

12:14 PM

Monday, August 24, 2009

where's the sense of responsibility tt they use to have?
why are we seeing our efforts of maintaining the club flowing down the drain?

to combine the two clubs will never be an option tt we want to see.
but it seems like it is going to be inevitable.. unless we close down, which will really be heartbreaking.

now i can only do my best to finish up all my projects.

10:31 AM

Monday, August 10, 2009

its going to be the start of yr4..

i'm trying to find a way to put up photos here, but somehow, blogger is giving me probs..
shall upload once blogger allows..

the last yr of my studies before entering the working world..

9:18 PM

Sunday, August 02, 2009

sudden realisation tt i dun need to go back to sch anymore.
n its a little discomforting suddenly.
i actually miss teaching!

omg..

maybe i miss the students..
maybe i miss my colleagues..
but i know i dun miss the admin work.. lol..

oh well, having one wk break now, n it'll be the start of sch again.
time seems to have flown pass so fast..
i kept feeling like i've just started life in NIE..
but in fact, i'm going into my 4th n final yr of studies..

i feel old suddenly..

7:47 PM

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

its the last 2 days.
i'm looking forward to the end of the practicum, but at the same time, i dun really want to leave the sch.
i've learnt a lot from M&M, n i really appreciate wad they have done to teach me. i gained a lot of experience from them, n a lot of tips.
i would miss the interaction with M&M, n the rest of the staffroom. i've enjoyed myself a lot.
even though it was tiring, i still want to stay on.

10:57 PM

Monday, July 20, 2009

i had a nightmare tt i couldn't shake off..
n somehow, my confidence abt my own choice was shaken..

at the very least, i have gotten over 4 observations. i just have one more to look forward to now.

tmr is racial harmony day.
i'm still thinking whether to wear my baju kurong..

n as my laogong said, "the iron opens tmr"..
i'm dying to shop..

9:32 PM

Friday, July 10, 2009

its been a while since i've last updated my blog.

2 wks into my teaching practice 1, n i'm pretty much enjoying myself.
not tt there's no work, mind u, but i realise tt i can explore different ways of teaching since there're not much discipline probs to deal with in class.
stress level for teachers is pretty high though. the admin work is hell of a lot, markings have to be done right after exams have ended, n common tests are coming, so paper setting has to be done.
i'm not the one marking the midyr exams for the sec4s, but i have to help M1 set the sbq for common test.
M1&M2 have helped me along the way, n M1 has esp made me realise tt having a sense of humour is an impt skill in life. if i were a student in his class, i would be laughing most of the time in class.
however, i'm not the kind where humour comes daily. i'm not sure whether cold jokes will help. i just have to try my best to lighten up in class as well, n not become nervous when M1 or M2 are in class.

there's work to be done, so i guess i have to stop here.
its really not an easy job, but i hope i can get the hang of it soon.
if not, i'll really burn out very fast.

11:44 PM

Friday, June 26, 2009

its the last 3 days of my freedom..

actually, i've been busy all this while.. with BA club stuff, with the extra marking tt my CT gave me..

i'll take tt as gd training lahz.. although i'm feeling stressed over it..

bought this bumblebee after watching the 1st movie of transformers.. finally got the casing to keep it!

today just watched the 2nd movie of transformers.. n frankly speaking, the 1st one is still nicer..

the 2nd one is nerve-wrecking, a lot of fighting scenes, n quite a few dirty jokes..

the scene i like most is when optimus prime came back from the dead...

now i'm tempted to buy the optimus prime figurine.. but it cost $45 to $50!!

sobz.. no money..

11:06 PM

Friday, June 12, 2009

i've not updated my blog for quite some time..
here are some updates abt wad i've been doing for the past few days...

met up with yiting for dinner, n we went bugis iluma for dinner. looking for a cheap place to eat wasn't easy, until we went to the top floor, where we saw this "noodle empire". the colours n style of the signboard reminded us so much abt restaurant city on facebook! after tt cheaper dinner, we went downstairs, to a place selling chocolate desserts. man are they good!

i ate this chocolate pancake with chocolate ice cream.. at first i thought the pancake wouldn't be chocolate, but i was wrong.. everything on the plate was chocolate flavoured! the only non-chocolate food was half a strawberry..

this was wad yiting ate.. same as wad we made together at yiting's house..

look at the chocolate inside oozing out!

anyway, these few days i've been going out with laogong when i was free. since laogong had the car to himself, he drove me to a few places tt we usually wouldn't go becoz of inaccessibility..

today, we went to east coast park! not to cycle, since i didn't want to sweat like a pig n dirty the car.. but we went to stroll along the beach n sat at the jetty for a long time to chit chat. after dinner at the food centre, we continued strolling.

nice nice pic of the sky!

after tt, since it was still pretty early, he drove to marina barrage. i wanted to go there for quite some time, but becoz it was pretty inaccessible, i didn't mention it. today was the perfect opportunity!

this is the view of the city skyline from the marina barrage.. pretty nice!

my dear laogong.. love him loads! =P

went home after spending quite some time chatting there.. n i saw..

this! the cat tt always loiters outside my house..

11:03 PM

Sunday, June 07, 2009

yesterday was thomas's wedding...
it is the first wedding i've attended of my fren's...
n it feels strange somehow.. watching him walk down the aisle with his newly wedded wife..
suddenly, it feels like a different world out there..

the pastor who said a few words before the newly weds were wedded, said some things tt are worth pondering over.

1. communication is impt, but there are 3 different aspects to communication: (i can't rem the first one), communicate intimately, n communicate encouragingly.
u don't just tell ur other half wad had gone on during ur day. it shouldn't be a commentary, but it should allow ur other half to know u better. let him/her know wad made u happy today, n wad made u unhappy today. tt's intimate communication.
to communicate encouragingly, it means tt u dun give names to ur other half. when u intro ur wife/hubby to ur frens, dun intro him/her as "ur maid". both parties have to work hard to keep the marriage going, n no one would feel worthy if he/she is labelled as "the maid".

2. keep ur marriage fresh, by going dating. work is always there, n saying tt u have "no time" is not a gd excuse not to spend time with ur other half.

3. no one is perfect. not even u. when u're not perfect, dun expect ur other half to be. if he/she make mistakes, just like u do too, forgive him/her before the day is over. cold war isn't going to help the situation. both would lose out.

the wedding was great. thomas was his usual self, n i can see tt he's really happy. as he put it, he was grinning so hard, his cheeks are aching. i'm happy for him.

will put up the photos when i have them...

11:33 AM

Saturday, May 30, 2009

i've come back from indonesia!

n i miss bali already..
the sun, the sea.. the tanning session..

oh well, back to life here..
have to concentrate on Arts Jam now..
n i have to pack my stuff..

gosh.. i hate this latter part..

i'll put up the photos soon, when i have the complete collections from tt few cameras..

11:02 AM

Monday, May 18, 2009

i'll be flying off in abt 13 hrs..
have already finished packing yest..
i'm still a little worried, coz i'll be coming back alone..

oh well, i'll just treat this as a gd experience...
i can't wait to see angel!!!
n see how big her house really is.. lol..

9:25 PM

Friday, May 08, 2009

its been another wk since my last update..

other than angel's surprise bday party last wed, going out with yiting this wed to timbre @ substation (for the first time in my life), n watching wolverine with laogong yest, there was nothing much tt had been going on.

have been reading n slping n watching tv n just plain rotting.
i have to start on learning malay..

now awaiting confirmation for my appt at tan tock seng hospital..
i hope it'll be very soon..

well.. another wk has passed..
one more wk to go..
n i'll be heading to indonesia!

10:06 AM

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

finally, everything is over!
makes it sound like i had like a million exams to go through...
it really felt like it!

now tt exams are over, tt means i've ended my yr 3..
n this means.. my 3rd practicum is coming!
i've been posted to crescent girls this time.
its less convenient for me.. but i shall do my best.

yest was a crazy day.. it was the first time i stepped into sushi teh..
n the first time i tried lan gaming..
guess how many times i helped to win CS?
its a no-brainer qn.. only twice i think!
n i usually get killed first before i've even started shooting.. tt's so rookie right..
i hate sneak attacks from characters with knives! damn it..
the kind of feeling is like, u're dead before u even knew wad happened..
sucky feeling lorz..

oh well.. today will be a day filled with anticipation.. haha..
will post up photos after today is over =P

10:49 AM

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

one paper is over..
there's another paper on the 28th..
n its fernando's..
scary!

tera says i'm too nice to my students..
m i really?
i just find tt its not worth getting angry over them..
even though they're noisy n they dun really listen to me..
only see them once a wk mahz..

oh well.. better finish marking their papers, then go study for fernando's paper..

1:27 PM

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

i'm a happy girl... (^_^)

6:27 PM

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

been quite some time since i updated my blog..
have finished all assignments, n now its the mugging period for exams..
20th n 28th.. seems like a long time.. n yet.. it feels so short as well..
wouldn't be doing much studying on 15th n 16th.. so i'm left with 5 days.. n with half a day on Sun spent on tuition, i'm left with 4 n a half days..

oh well, shall make the best out of it..

anyway, had been reading this article explaining top 10 common dreams.. so just post it here..

1. Faulty or lost items: your phone won't work, your car breaks down, or you can't find your husband.
This dream is alerting you to areas of your life that need repair or extra care right now. You may want to slow down and pay more attention to the realm of life indicated. For example, if you dream of your phone not working, notice how you are communicating to others now. Are you doing everything you can to get your message across in a positive way? If not, you may want to tune up this area of your life.

2. Money: you received a windfall, or you lost your savings in the stock market.
Money in dreams symbolizes what you value or find important in life. If you dream of suddenly receiving a sum of money, this indicates that you are at a time in your life when your values are becoming very clear to you. If you have dreams of losing money, you may be experiencing a time of feeling separated from your sense of meaning in life. Try to explore what has been important to you in the past to see if your values have changed or altered over time.

3. You find yourself back in the classroom, or you've failed a test.
This dream indicates that there is a challenge in your life and you fear failing. It also can mean that you may feel that you have regressed in some way and are not up to the task currently at hand. You may also feel judged or tested by an authority figure or someone who is in charge of you in some way.

4. You or a loved one is ill or dying.
You may be approaching a time of great change when some parts of your life are falling away and disappearing. This dream is helping you to practice the feelings of loss that you may be having as the elements of your life or your relationships with others change and evolve. It is rare that this dream forecasts an actual death or illness, but it still might be a good idea to get a checkup or pay extra attention to your health now.

5. Being chased.
Being chased in a dream indicates that you may be feeling you have a lot of responsibilities that you are having a hard time keeping up with. This dream is often known as a "stress dream," indicating that its presence is a sign to try to relax and slow down.

6. Teeth: you're smiling with nice, clean teeth, or your teeth are breaking off or forming cavities.
Teeth represent time, stability, and maturity. The state of the teeth in your dream will give important clues as to what your relationships and feelings are related to these important life themes.

7. Nudity.
Dreams where you or someone else appears nude relate to feelings of being exposed or vulnerable in waking life. You may currently be having an experience where everyone else seems to know about your problems and issues, and you are having a hard time processing your situation privately.

8. Falling, flying, or sinking.
Changing direction, either going up or down in a dream, indicates where your awareness is in waking life. Dreams of falling or sinking symbolize a time of being more aware of your unconscious mind and deepest innermost thoughts, feelings, and memories. Dreams of flying indicate that you are exploring your conscious mind at this time or connecting to the realm of spirits, angels, and other energetic beings.

9. Water
Water in dreams is a sign that a certain emotional situation or experience is of importance in your life. Now is a good time to pay particular attention to your feelings and the realm of the imagination, dreams, and fantasies. The condition or state of the water will give clues as to the exact nature of your experience. Hurricanes and storms can indicate more challenging emotional situations, and on the opposite side, gentle streams and lakes indicate a more calm and peaceful emotional state or even a love or romantic connection.

10. Missing a boat, plane, bus, etc.
Transportation vehicles in dreams symbolize the ability to move and act in the world. They represent our will, desire, and skill at accomplishing and manifesting our dreams and goals. When one of these vehicles is missing, it can mean that we are having a hard time finding the motivation to act and move in the world. We may need to reconnect with what drives or propels us into creatively manifesting our dreams.

Developing the skill to interpret and make the most of your dream messages is an easy and enjoyable process and can be done by just about anyone.

Quick Tips to Interpret and Benefit from Your Dreams:
1. Keep a dream journal near your bed to record your dreams.
2. Read through your journal once a week and underline repeating dream symbols, terms, people, and themes that arise.
3. Use the guide above to track your current emotional state and life issues, and notice the patterns and timing of their evolution.
4. Try to identify any dream symbols (cars, teeth, water) that appear in your waking life, noticing which appear with greater frequency and the nature of your interaction with these symbols. Is there any overlap between your waking and dreaming life?

taken from http://astrocenter.astrology.msn.com/msn/ArticleAstrologyHomeV2.aspx?sd=20090414&GT1=21001

9:42 AM

Sunday, April 05, 2009

almost 12am..
i'm still doing my work..
rarely still awake at this time, but i guess the long nap helped a little..
perhaps i should be resting, since my throat is still barely recovering..
but i'm on the roll now i guess..

its really been a long time since i felt so bleahz..
its one of the moments when i wish the world really is just abt me..
n someone is here to pamper me 24/7..
haha wishful thinking horz..

but i'm wondering.. how many days break should i take every time i have throat infection? wad will happen to my students?

i should insure my throat i guess.. lol..

but thanks for all the care n concern from my frens.. i feel loved =)

11:53 PM

Saturday, March 28, 2009

gonna be cooped up in my hole n doing essays..

n after exams, i'm gonna hibernate..

thinking too far le.. one step at a time first..

12:00 PM

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

days where downs are more than ups...
common when assignments are due one after another rapidly...
these are times when i really want to give up.
but i've got through the past 5 sems.. i shouldn't give up so easily now.

i'm still wondering wad movie laogong is going to surprise me with..
its the first time he keeps me in suspence for this long..
not tt its irritating or wad, but i guess i'm naturally quite an impatient person..
but even though i've bugged him abt it for many times, he still refused to tell me..

3:07 PM

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

today was like an almost close brush with death.
it left me a little shaken by how close it can be to meet death.
or see ur love ones meet death.

it was a road accident tt happened right in front of my eyes.
i saw the car banging straight onto the motorcycle.
n the guy falling onto the road n getting pinned by his bike.
it was lucky tt he could walk away with a few bruises n scratches.
but it was so damn close.
if anything else had happened, like for e.g. some other car knocked into the bike the 2nd time (touch wood), i think the guy wouldn't have made it out alive.

too close for comfort..
n i was so shocked after tt, it took me almost a min to take action n go towards the guy.

was still quite shaken when i reached sch.
but i pushed it to the back of my mind to concentrate on my lessons.
now thinking back, i worry for my dad.
i wish the motorbike wasn't his convenient method of travelling around.

8:54 PM

ok just happen to come across this in facebook:
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

n here are my results..

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic (yep very true). When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person. (n yes, i've met that person =P)

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates (hmm is it?).

Your views on education:
You may not like to study (haha of coz!) but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job (how unusual can teaching be?).

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. (oh yes, i hope i'm set for life)

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. (that's new..)

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable (oh really? am i that scary?), with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

haha how true is this? perhaps most of it is true.. n maybe i just dun realise it..

n now i'm wondering.. wad is ppl's first impression of me?
no one had ever said anything abt this..

10:25 AM

Sunday, March 08, 2009

i read the story book, n i cried while reading it.

i watched the movie today, n i cried as well.

well owen wilson was, as usual, his funny self.

but i guess the attention was on the dog..

only one pity: the puppy stage was way too short!!

the puppy was supposed to be so cute!

n yet it was only for one-tenth of the show!!!!

anyway, wanted to go walking again after the movie.

but crying really takes my energy out.

so, we ended up going home after tt.

oh, i saw 5 new carebears in keychains!

but the price is still at $6.95..

yz suggested going mustafa to look..

i'm contemplating it..

11:08 PM

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

someone once said tt once my semester starts, most of my posts would be on work..
sorry for being so boring.. heh.. when i get busy, nothing much will make life more interesting..

but recently, thanks to a particular someone, i've begun to like having night time walks..
its kind of relaxing.. like u have no commitments, no aims, just pure relieving of stress..
n there's a quiet listener as well when i need to grouch abt something..

the only bad pt though.. u end up staying up late, n it is never advisable to do it when u have an 8.30 class the next morning..

anyway, yesterday's ach class was filled with lots of nostalgic feelings abt doing source-based qns for hist.. reminded me so much abt how desmond lim used to force us to speak up in class, n using so many different sources to make sure we've understood his pt..

i miss being a student sometimes..

n i'm gonna miss studying life even more once i've graduated!
it is just a yr ahead!!

omg~~~

8:19 PM

Friday, February 27, 2009

oh gosh..
its fri..

recess wk is ending soon!!
boo~

should stop staying out so late le..

looking forward to the bbq later!! shall post up photos when i'm back!!

12:13 PM

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

recently watched this movie:

n i found it pretty interesting..

becoz the msg behind this movie was tt not all Germans are as crazy as Hitler.

even if they're fighting the war against the allied ctys, they are doing it to protect their cty, not for Hitler. n even the next-in-line of commanding position might not be so agreeable to Hitler's actions as well.

but it also showed how extensive Hitler's influence was.

as usual, the war scenes are like how war scenes will look like, i'm not gonna analyse the movie..

n dr rahil will probably be criticising the movie n foaming from the mouth if she watches it.. haha..

anyway, this is the first time i've watched a late night movie, n first time watching movie with yz, after knowing him for.. 3yrs? lol..

while waiting for the bus, (or rather, hoping tt we didn't miss the last bus) we saw a woman being chased by dogs near the "chopsticks" memorial.. n she was screaming her head off.. yz had to run halfway across the rd to guide her towards the other side of the rd.. pretty scary..

i only knew tt there were dogs just a few days before, while walking from bugis to esplanade park with yz after his jap lesson.. luckily tt time when we walked past, i only saw one, n it was just sitting on the grass.. i tot tt the woman was only chased by one dog, but according to yz, there were 3 big ones barking at her.. tt's really scary.. i wonder why the dogs were there..

anyway, some photos to share..

this pic might have been nicer if the background wasnt filled with construction..

this cat just simply loves my house too much.. i wonder why..

2:34 PM

Sunday, February 15, 2009

我一直以为我是比较理性的。
但原来，我还是有感性的时候。
他那一句"watever", 让我突然心里一阵痛。
也不知道为什么，突然很在乎。

我不是太敏感，
只是不知道发生了什么事。

他最后还是没有说明理由，但我知道是因为我的一句话。
我只能猜测。

我今天还是很开心。
那个地方真的很宁静。
我现在明白为何他喜欢在晚上出没。

11:50 PM

Monday, February 02, 2009

a symphony of heels..
tt's wad i heard when i was walking along the pathway b/t the NEL n EWL at outram mrt..

n it reminded me so much of my Guiding days..
when i wished so much to be able to wear boots one day in a marching contingent..

will u bend to others' will under pressure?

9:42 AM

Monday, January 26, 2009

Happy Chinese New Yr!

life is rather mundane..

its just work work work work n more work..

so nothing much to update i guess..

11:23 AM

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

settle down.. be at peace.. settle down.. settle down..

i'm trying to psycho myself to start reading..
but its so hard..
just thinking abt the mountain of readings for just one module is enough to turn me off..
i wonder why my tutor likes to torture us with so much readings..
whenever he ask us whether we have read a certain bk, (which of coz we've not heard of at all), the standard line is:

"shame on u!"

talk abt motivating us..

haiz.. if he cuts down on the amt of readings he give us, we'll have more time to read those unheard-of books tt he always likes to read..

n if only exams can all be scraped..

how to enjoy studying like tt??

2:46 PM

Sunday, January 11, 2009

one wk of sch has passed..

its so difficult to go back to the hectic life.

only 3hr of fernando lessons.. n he has already given us 10 sets of readings..

n i have a grp presentation on mon..

but i have something to be happy abt..

i have a new idol!

haha.. sound so teenager-ish..

he is someone who's kung fu is as gd as jackie chan n vincent ng..

n he's one yr younger than me..

tt's him! 释小龙！

i'd watched his kung fu in the serial drama of young justice bao 2 & 3, n seriously, its so awesome to see him act. he look really cute when he was very young. now he has become xiao shuai ge liaoz. haha.. ok i'll try not to go gaga over him..

after finding his blog, i started on a frenzy of looking for the old shows tt he had acted in.. n woohoo~ i found quite a few! haha.. i even found the first series of young justice bao tt i had tried so hard to look for!

ok i should go n slp le.. i have tuition tmr..

12:10 AM

Thursday, January 01, 2009

its 2009!

looking back to 2008, i realised i've not accomplished much..
even during the hols, there's nothing much i've done..
done nothing major, barely able to finish my assignments, n don't have any aims in mind.
so disappointed in myself..

n wads the use of having resolutions if nothing is done to achieve them?
so i've decided not to have any resolutions.
i'll just be lying to myself.

but i do have one aim:
to work hard.

i have to push my standards up higher.
n learn to be strong. to take things in stride. to stand up quicker when i fall.

oh well.. perhaps all those can be called resolutions.

anyway, my timetable's out.
4 day week again.
but i bet.. i'll be going back to sch on fris for club activities.
right mel?

but my mons are the worse.
last class ends at 7.30.
really sianz.

ahh well, have to start preparing for start of sch..
fernando n blackburn.. perfect combi..
super siong + super slack = just nice
haha..

3:04 PM

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

new song uploaded!

回家的路总是很远
话少得很可怜
一个人的晚餐
都是孤单的滋味
看见身边重复上演
属于我们的画面
选择逃避的眼
怎么还是会流泪

爱着你的每一天
你就是我的世界
那时候还以为
我就爱这一遍
没有你的每一天
快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了
还能用什么感觉

我舍不得睁开眼睛
害怕身边没有你
也许在梦境里
是我们最近的距离
想念你温热的手心
冷风里把我握紧
当冬天又来临
这温度该怎么延续

谢谢你曾经爱过我
给我最美的经过
但生命最爱被剥夺
未来的路该怎么走

kind of saddened by this song..
but its really nice..
n it also reflects how anyone would probably feel when their loved ones are suddenly ripped from their lives..

heart-wretching pain.. tt's all i can say..

11:09 AM

Sunday, December 21, 2008

was looking through one of my younger cousin's blog..
he's back in hongkong anyway..
he graduated from sec sch liaoz..
its like, time flies so fast lahz.. haiz.. he's grown up le..

n suddenly, i feel so old..

i was reading a fren's posting..
n an onslaught of memories came flooding back..

i guess.. its impossible to escape from them..
they'll just come back n haunt u when u least expect them to..

i really have to shelf all the memories as much as i can.. keep them locked up.. n throw away the key..

11:25 AM

Monday, December 15, 2008

人的一生
充满酸甜苦辣
顺遂与横逆
更是交迭循環
平凡的我们
只能以淡然处之
保持正向生活
面对自己的人生
请相信生命的真谛
只要用心品尝过的
就是幸福的滋味

getting emo these few days..
i'm glad i have gd frens who are willing to listen to me, n my loving laogong who supports me when i'm down.

my exam results are just average. not particularly bad, but not super good as well.
i'm not expecting much for the next 3 sems. just hoping tt i can maintain my gpa in my modules.
n i hope for the best for my practicum. they are the ones which will determine my fate.

i should really settle down n pack all my stuff.
not just physically, but emotionally.

11:33 PM

10 most bizarre zoo signs..

10:58 PM

Sunday, December 14, 2008

ok its been such a long time since i updated after my exams..
shall do so now.. since i'm having my lunch..
its gonna be photo-intensive!

the day my exams ended, the grp of us went to angel's house for an early christmas celebration! since they're going to fly back to indonesia 2 days later, the 2 tjohandi sisters decided to organise one n invited their frens over.

this is my team, when we were playing "taboo" or something along tt line..

trying to guess the word..

tt's me, trying to describe a word.. the category i got was "world".. difficult lahz.. haiz..

dinner time! angel trying to teach us how to eat indomee.. is it tt difficult to eat indomee?

streaming into the kitchen, waiting for food..

yeah! food's ready!

tt's the paper xmas tree tt they created.. we were supposed to write down our wishes for xmas, n also write down nice messages to anyone who are present in the party.

the pile of presents tt were to be exchanged.. wayne received the notebook tt i bought, i received the waterbottle tt david bought.

the tjohandi sisters performing for us.. their voices are so gd!

me n tera babe..

me! with tiara in the background.. haha..

the hist students!! crazy bunch of us haha..

another crazy shot..

3 pretty ladies!

another shot.. haha.. i wonder how many we took altogether..

last grp shot!

went to volunteer my services for the Apera conference held in nie.. its a bigscale conference, with so many foreign delegates.. i was in the hospitality team, supposed to be mingling with the big shots n delegates..

tera, janna, huijing n i stayed overnight in the student hub for all 3 days.. arrived one day before the conference started to set up "camp".. no aircon though, tt's probably y we all did many crazy shots..

janna performing in her slping bag..

using the sofa seats as "surfboards".. n here tera goes with her snow cap on..

n janna is preparing to jump on..

n yep, crazy me.. after much persuasion from janna n tera..

after the first day of conference, went out for supper to alameen (at bukit timah) with the 3 pretty ladies n james as our "driver".. his car is so cool lorz!

james, with his "mouthful" shot.. his laughter is pretty infectious though.. so try not to be eating or drinking when he's around.. lol..

ordering food..

with huijing..

i ordered the black pepper chicken rice.. serving so big, tt i couldnt finish it..

5 of us shared the plate of tandori chicken.. janna's fav.. haha..

taken with quomariah, during the 2nd day of conference.. didnt take much photos after tt, coz quite busy running ard..

went out for late dinner (or early supper?) at west coast food centre.. the food's pretty nice!

janna's recommendation of mutton chop.. the food colouring is really red manz..

tera, jingyi n i sharing interesting stories abt our profs.. haha..

day 3 was really tiring somehow.. maybe becoz of the walking n serving of food etc..

at our "cove" having a much needed rest..

jingyi n james (with his funny face).

took funny shots with prof vivien huan.. haha she very cute one, told us very funny things..

dr isabella wong giving our last briefing, n teasing quomie with her "masala man".. haha..

taking photos on the stage.. the very serious shot..

the not-so-serious shot..

our jump shots.. james n jingyi can come out with very funny styles of jumping..

tera with her secret weapon.. 3 pairs of arms! reminds me of "lilo n stitch"..

taking funny photos again.. haha.. last day of bus duties..

with jingyi n huijing..

james included.. another funny shot..

one last "spooky" shot.. b4 we left sch..

went out with yiting abt 2 wks ago.. went to watch the chiwawa movie.. super cute lorz! after tt went for dinner.. yiting wanted to eat sakae sushi, but we found out tt the top floor of heeren was revamped totally.. so we ate a waraku instead..

yiting's curry chicken rice..

we shared this clam thingy.. quite nice..

n my seafood curry udon.. super big bowl.. couldnt finish..

no more photos, but just a few more outings to update..

went out with mel to sangri-la hotel to eat our long-awaited dessert buffet.. $31 per pax.. well it was pretty nice environment, n the food's mouth-watering, but most of it is choco, so end up we din eat much.. there was free flow tea of 102 kinds for u to choose from, we only drank 2..

after tt went shopping.. n wow.. first time i see a guy shop even more than me.. haha.. i think he spent at least $200 on just shopping.. not counting the buffet.. but it was an interesting experience going out with him.. makes me feel less guilty abt my own shopping sprees =P

ba club work is starting.. need to send in official emails etc for the bazaar.. if really kenna 9 feb 09 tt wk, i'll be working through my bday.. lol.. after tt ba club meeting, went for lunch with ong hui, florence n samartha.. the 3 of them like to call me "wanyee jie".. n mel wanted to do the same.. but i told him tt if he dare to, i'll slap him.. do i really look tt old?? haiz..

12:26 PM