Sunday, September 09, 2012
Been 2 yrs since this blog had seen something new..
I guess i've been neglecting to update abt my life to my oh so loyal followers of my blog..
Or maybe i've hidden all my frustrations n pushed them out of the way..
I guess lying awake at night n not being able to slp has pushed me to do something b4 i go crazy over the thoughts in my head.
Tried so hard to ignore the qns tt she had asked me, even though i know she meant well, but i hate the qns tt had sunk into my head.
I've never questioned the feelings, the character, the lack of initiative. Kept telling myself tt it was him, n i know him.
Yet with her qns, i wasnt prepared by my own insecurities tt appeared.
Asking outright would take alot of guts.
I tried. Didnt manage to finish without my courage failing.
I'm a small woman afterall.
N yet, she felt i had taken too much initiative.
Maybe tt was my way to hide my insecurities n fears.
Been so long since i lost slp over this.
Work had made me so tired tt all these had faded.
Now my crazy thoughts appeared when i have some time.
Sometimes i wish i can just stop thinking. 1:47 AM
