Sunday, July 02, 2006
a little tired, but not very slpy.. waiting for laogong to finish watching soccer n slp..
went for the signing of the teacher training agreement.. a rather quick process, but with long term commitments being made.. yes i do mean long term.. 8 yrs at least.. after tt comes (perhaps) studying in nus fass.. n then another 1 or 2 yrs of conversion studies? gosh i'll probably only marry at the age of 30.. haha better not let my mum know.. she'll slaughter me for marrying late.. shucks i'm sounding like xingle now.. i think i'm spending too much time with her =P
i've gone through more than 10yrs of studying.. since the age of 5.. 8 yrs of studying shouldn't sound so horrifying.. but this time round, it is gonna determine how the rest of my life is going to be like.. n the amt of money tt is involved.. its much more than wad my family can afford.. if anything goes wrong, i'll not only drag down my own family, i'll also implicate my relatives.. esp my uncle, who not only agreed to become my surety, n still has to pay for his own son's uni fees in another 2 yrs.. i know they'll try to help, n it makes me guilty tt my own failures had implicated them..
ok no more negative thoughts. my frens have faith in me. y can't i have faith in myself?
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