Friday, May 25, 2007
time: 5.50am
crazy timing horz?
but couldnt help it but to turn on my comp n write down abt my dream.. something tt i've never done..
i was a person living in a cty during the JO..
sounds real crazy? its not.
i couldnt imagine last time how ppl used to live during the JO period.
now i can.
tt mind-numbing, heart-thumping fear, so thick in ur head n its everywhere.
the fear tt the Japs will come after u for no gd reason.
the fear tt the Japs will kill u on the streets just becoz they suddenly feel like doing so.
the pain of losing ur family to the Japs.
the frustration everyday when u find tt the Japs were still not gone, n all wasn't a nightmare.
guess how i woke up from this nightmare?
by a gunshot.
whether tt shot was meant for me or not, i'm not sure.
but it made my heart race so bad, i thought i was having asthma.
its really a bad nightmare.
but at the same time, its gd i guess.. to fully understand how it feels to live during the JO period.
even now, my heart is still thumping, but the memory of it is already fading.
i'll forget the details, but never the feeling of fear.
so i pray hard, tt there won't be a war in singapore at all. not in this lifetime, not in the next, or even the next next. its not fun, to experience this in real life.
6:02 AM
