Monday, April 21, 2008
i was on the bus today on the way home.
n when i was walking down the stairs to the door, the ppl sitting near the door looked up at me.
then it struck me: ppl always look at the stairs in curiousity when someone walks down.
so wad do ppl think abt when they first see me?
its a bit weird to be stared at sometimes, esp when there're ppl with similar traits as me.
no i dun mean tt i'm a "starer".. just tt my eyes work more than my other senses.
tt's y sometimes when i'm staring at someone unconsciously, the person can feel it.
my laogong had felt it many times liaoz.
so wad kind of 1st impression do ppl have abt me?
i'm curious abt it.
perhaps someone will be thinking: "wad an ugly face"
ahhh i seriously hope not.
can't wait for exams to be over.. haiz..
i think i'm going to flunk my geog..
luckily its the last sem of taking geog..
n last sem to have him in the same class as me (i hope) 10:39 PM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
angel has left s'pore today, her flight was at 7+am..
i din manage to wake up at 6+ to wish her a safe flight, but at least yest got to spend time with her, even if its just a few hrs.
we went to watch the movie below: Escape from Huang Shi.
it was really nice n well-worth the wk-end price for movies. its feels very historical, but very gd in knowing how lives were for ppl living under Jap rule in China. it reminded me much abt the nightmare tt i had last time, but tt fearful feeling has faded over time. perhaps its becoz it was only a dream. but i can't imagine how it would be like to really be living in tt kind of env, where fear surrounds u, n ur normal way of life was seriously disrupted.
the movie didn't end like those "happily ever after" movies tt we usually expect. the ang moh protagonist, George Hogg, died after resettling the boys in a safer place. n there were true accounts after the movie of how grateful the boys were to George Hogg for saving them. i really find it nice becoz he didn't fear death. he was really courageous to face up to the Jap soldiers again n again, n he truly wanted wad was best for the boys. n when he knew he was going to die, he didnt fear it.
alright better get back to my studies.. after really looking at the re-enactment of the Nanjing Massacre on the movie screen, i can't believe the Japs would still want to deny such a thing. no matter wad kind of national pride one has for a cty, such things cannot be hidden n white-washed into nothing. it just can't be done.
10:33 AM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
found this through my sis' blog..
pretty simple huh.. instead of answering so many qns..
but i dunno how true they are..
| What Ho Wan Yee Means |
 You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.
You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.
You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. |
damn it.. my exam starts tmr.. n its the dreaded rahil's paper..
i wish i can turn back time..
actually, i've been wishing tt ever since i came back from sikkim..
i know i know.. i should stop dreaming..
but dun forget, i'm silencedreamer..
so some part of my brain will always be dreaming..
10:13 PM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
its time to slp lahz..
but b4 tt, should update a little bit
to tell the truth, i'm beginning to lose track of time
n a lot of things were dragged till the last min to complete
even my assignments
but at the very least, i din sacrifice time with my dear fren to rush for my assignments
becoz it is impt for me, n for her, to get to spend time with me after not meeting for so long..
n afterall, it is to celebrate her 21st bday.
sadly, i was super forgetful,
i din msg her to wish her happy bday on the day itself.
sorry yiting..
i know i wished u in the card, n saying it now again is already 5 days late..
but i'll still say it lahz..
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!legally an adult liaoz, so lets go n watch R21 shows together one day!
anyway, i changed my laptop skin!! spent a total of $43, including the pasting service provided by the person. its really a gd job done! =)
higly recommended:
http://lappyskins.blogspot.comhaha lazy to take photo of my newly-skinned laptop.. shall post it next time after the exams lahz =P
ok lahz.. should slp le, n continue mugging when i wake up a few hrs later..
jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!
12:17 AM
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
happy april fools!
oh gosh.. its hard to be happy when u still have 2 more assignments to rush for..
but on the gd side, i'm going with yiting on wed!!! haha =P
everything is put on hold just because of assignments n sch work.. even sikkim stuff are being pushed back again n again..
i seriously can't multi-task..
maybe i'm really more like a guy than a girl..
bleahz..
on a more sobering note, one of my fren's father passed away last wk.
we went to visit him on the same day.
he told us tt his father didn't want to be put on life support when the time comes, n if its God's will, no one can stop it.
n so he left peacefully.
it got me thinking, if it ever happens to my own parents one day, or even to myself, wad will be my decision? wad would i want it to be?
at this present moment, i would say tt i have no answer to tt.
i can say very frankly now tt if the time has come, i can do nothing to stop it.
but things will change as i grow old.
i would want to get married myself. i would want to see my children grow up, get married, have children, all the stuff tt most parents would want to see as well.
if i won't get to see it happen, would i still be ok with leaving just like tt?
i guess such a decision can only be made when i grow older..
or should i make it now?
we should make the best out of everyday, so tt we won't regret only when we're at our deathbeds.
such cliche words, but so true as well.
12:19 AM
